Thank God for a better day. Alyssa got so much better in the afternoon. In fact, the nurse said that she would say that she is stable for now. Of course this doesn't mean that she will remain so and I know that we will be hit with something else eventually. But for now I am going to focus on the fact that we are making progress and we are on the right track! All of the problems that Alyssa faced this morning seemed to be fixed by the afternoon. Blood pressure? Good. In fact the nurse was able to decrease one of her blood pressure medicines when we were down in her room earlier. Heart rate? Still a little high but not as bad! I can't help but be so proud of her when the nurse tells me that she is down on her requirements. Plus she does not have to be under the phototherapy light for now.
It is amazing to see God working in her daily. Today seemed so long and I was extremely distraught. I felt guilty leaving her when she was doing so badly but I noticed that her blood pressure and heart rate were off if I kept stimulating her (talking to her, touching her). So I decided to back off and let her just rest and it seemed to do the trick. In fact, the nurse said that she became more responsive (and I got to see it tonight) and she even opened her eyes and was looking around. I have noticed that she is sucking her tubes more and moving her hands more. I can't describe how happy I am to see her doing these things.
Tonight, the nurse asked if I wanted to change her diaper and let me tell you. I was extremely anxious and nervous doing it. She is just so fragile and I didn't want to mess up any of her progress but it turned out to be ok. Here is a picture of me doing something mommy-ish for my baby!
I know you are proud of your baby girl, and I am too... But I am proud of you as well!! You are already such a phenonmenal mommy! You were able to use that maternal instinct and know she needed space and then have the strength to actual do it and I know that was REALLY difficult! I am so proud of you and of course Alyssa too! I love you!
ReplyDeleteI'm so so glad to hear she is doing a little better! Keep the faith! <3
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